Updated: Mar 8, 2020
Well ironed uniform with stars on the shoulders
Polished shoe with penetrable weapon
Comfortable quarters where I enter uncomfortably
Luxurious dining with less time
Planned and unplanned patrols
Unknown blood stories with rescuing duties
Life moves perfectly!!
Until I encounter an angel!!
When the sky drizzles
She carries the droplet on face
Dew on lotus facisnates my veins
Amid the bullet sound she stands as a melody
Unitfull of men to command
Early morning jogging
Sweating strengthens mind
Her face reflects in sunrays
Find her way, walk towards her
Before I utter, she hugs me firmly
"Where you have been?" Her words push me in maze
Yet I don't want to think
I holds her tightly
Her tears wet my uniform
Past pokes into present
The face which was hovered by blood
The hands which held my uniform, said
"I don't want to die"
The eyes which showed me the magnetic aroma
The girl who made me fall in love when she said farewell to life
I shouted at her to get her consciousness
"Tell me your name, look at me"
She disobeyed me
Her closed eyes are my curse
A year before attack on the trekkers in Sonamarg, Kashmir
Where I wept for my minute love which was unknown to me earlier
She smiles, I stare
"You are alive" I hate my words yet it's truth.
My arms around her clutches her strongly
"You shouldnt have done this to me"
I said softly
"I came back to tell you one thing"her lips pronounce
"My name is Aarudhra"
I pat on her head. She is my love I think inside
"Captain Sandeep Varma, how long you wish to hold me like this? She pulls my leg
How she knows my name. She unfurls her palm to show me something
My nameplate which she took from my chest that day
"Sandeep Varma" is engraved on that
I put my knees down as I believe in reality
My cute warrior is with me now
"I can't give you promises"
"I don't want any" she speaks
"I can't be with you always"
"But I can be with you ever" she says
"I can't take care of you regularly"
"I know how to do" she breaks my words
"I may come back"
She doesn't speak, her throat swallows the emotion
She puts herself down
"I am ready to be with you
You may take a bullet on your chest
You may come in coffin
You may get medal on chest
Your career is your duty
But you are my love what ever you do where ever you be,
Inside my arms and inside the coffin, you are my love, no one can change it"
When she finishes I give a vow to myself
"Let her receive you after ever goodbye. The lady who even love my coffin"