You left in peace. You left me in pieces
Retracing our steps
I still don't understand
Why did you leave me?
Was I not good enough for you
Were you scared to see my real side
Should I have done things differently
Should I have cared for you less
Should I have loved you more
Or maybe
I should have understood
That you'll be exactly the same person
I told you I'm scared of
Your hollow apologies
Can't fix the deeply engraved scars on my soul
But that's not what hurts me
I'm amused by how much damage
This so-called love can cause
I don't even know if you ever did love me or not
But you abandoning me
Surely made me hate myself
I started peeling my layers
Trying to understand
Exactly where am I flawed
In such a way
That the person I loved
Woke up one day
And said "I'm afraid to say
But
I just can't stay"
I clenched my heart yet again
Having flashbacks of our memories
Feeling my body shiver with pain
I gave you my best
And yet you left
Without even bothering to answer me
Without the courage to face me
I thought I deserved an explanation
But you said it like a mature man
This is how people do it
Walking away
Peacefully
Distancing themselves
Silently
For the betterment of each other
Mutually
I mock at this irony
Staring at the broken coffee mug you gave me
Wishing you could see beyond
How you left in peace,
To
How you left me in pieces.
~ Somya (Instagram: @the_unspoken_journal_ )